Monday, December 19, 2011

I'm Officially ♥-Broken

Yes my friends, today December 19, 2011 at around 9PM, I am officially heart-broken! Okay, if you are paying attention to my previous posts especially in my previous blog, then you'll have the glimpse of my story. So after almost two years of expecting, flirting (LoL) and being feelingera, finally, I now have the will and reason to stop. Because I've just saw him change his status from being single to in a relationship

First things first, how do I feel? I really don't know. If you are paying attention, I have already moved on. Despite the fact that there were moments of hope, I know that at that point it's quite impossible. Because if he really likes me, then why are we like this? Yup, I'm somehow hurt but more like just a pinch, and  then nothing. Because I have already prepared for this moment. I am already expecting this. Anyway, I don't really like him that much anymore. Actually, I also think that this is better. Because after everything that I have said about him, about him being bisexual, I don't think I can be with him. Imagine, everyone knows, even he knows that I suspect him. Then suddenly, everyone realizes that I like him. What would happen to me then? Shameful. LoL. 

Good thing I don't encounter him that much anymore. Him leaving was also a blessing in disguise for me. If we're still together, then I could have been hurting so much now. LoL. Aw, I remember my friend. I just wish he had also moved on. 

Anyway, I wish I would meet the right one asap. LoL.

Saturday, December 17, 2011

No Heart Beats Alone

Done with another Dystopian novel. Blood Red Road by Moira Young was somehow a page-turner for me. Only "somehow" because of how it was written. I've been eyeing this novel ever since it came out - female protagonist, dystopian theme, adventure and romance. The only thing that hindered me was the goal of the protagonist - to find his kidnapped brother. I don't know, maybe I was trying to find a more romantic plot so I wasn't  buying it. But then last week,  I saw it again in the bookstore and it was like begging me with puppy eyes to buy it, so I finally gave in. LoL. 

Before reading it I added it first in my Shelfari account and found out that not a lot of people have read it but the ones who have read had great reviews so I got excited. While I was browsing the page, I was confused when it was tagged as "painful to read" and "should have been better edited." I was like what the hell was that? So I finally decided to start reading it. And I was like - Shit! What's wrong with this book and the author? I was actually regretting that I bought it - poor grammar... wrong spellings... 

At first this is how I really felt for the book: For someone who loves the English language, this book is a nightmare. And for someone who is trying to master or learn the language, BRR is a BIG NO, NO. Unless it was read by someone who loves editing more than anything, then this would be a great gift for Christmas
  
One of the tags says "phonetic writing" so you'll know that it was purposedly written that way. BRR is a post-apocalyptic novel and it seemed that the characters did not have proper education and they were like slaves which explains why their speech was like that. I tell you, it was really hard to read at first. But after reading it for quite some time, I finally got the hang of it. I was actually surprised that I wasn't minding it anymore since I was somehow engrossed with the story. It was like my reading skills were able to adjust with it that I was actually reading the book's an as and, yer as you're, afeared as afraid and so on. I was like automatically correcting the wrong grammars and spellings while reading it. Although there were still some phrases/sentences which I needed to read twice to understand like this one - I was winded, he says, not dyin. I was like, winded? What's winded? I read it again and realized that it's wounded. I actually thought I wouldn't be able to finish it. But the story somehow captured me which made me endure everything until the end. LoL. I'm not saying BRR is a bad novel. I like the story and the characters - they were actually really great. No damsel in distress, no cheesy love scenes, but I couldn't really say I like how it was written. I know, I understand why it was written like that - so the author can portray the characters more... but still... 

Sorry for focusing more on how it was written. BRR was a really great adventure - post apocalyptic novel. But I prefer reading proper English since it's not my first language.
♥ Xerxes Break ♥
 I am the one who serves this dukedom... 
My name is Xerxes Break. By the way, this little one is Emily.