#KEadlyn All the Way

SPOILERS AHEAD

First of all, my KEadlyn heart is still grieving and writing in a blog is my therapy. So if you are part of the EadRik fandom, you better not read. I've already poured out my feelings on my tumblr so I don't expect this one to be long.

Maybe it's not the first kisses that are supposed to be special. 

Maybe it's the last ones. - Kile Woodwork

I knew even from the 4th book that there is a chance that Erik would end up with Eadlyn. Kile was just too obvious to be a choice. Both The Heir and The Crown had been hinting a lot that Eadlyn is getting fond of Erik, although I was doubtful it was enough for her to fall in love but I was pretty sure there was more to it. If I am to describe how I felt about the relationship building in the last two books, it was like KEadlyn was upfront and visible while EadRik was hiding in a corner waiting for the right moment. My problem is, it felt like EadRik moments weren't enough to convince me that they are really falling in love. Enough to be best friends but not as lovers. Oh well, I am probably sounding bitter, which I really am, so I'll just stop it here.

Finding a prince might mean kissing a lot of frogs. 

Or kicking a lot of frogs out of your house.

I am really heartbroken with the ending. This is the second time that I got so excited before reading a book but got disappointed in the end (the first one was Ignite Me.) The difference is that, the love twist in Ignite Me was unfair with Adam. Thank the heavens The Crown did nothing to taint Kile's perfectness.

 Falling might mean running headfirst into something you always wanted. 

Or dipping your toe into something you've been scared of your whole life.

Despite the end, I still could not hate The Selection. How could I hate the series that gave me MAxerica? Oh well, at least Kiera Cass did not kill America.

So this it! Finally, this time, it's really over. Goodbye Illea! MAxerica and KEadlyn all the way.

Happily ever after could be waiting in a field a mile wide. 

Or a window as narrow as seven minutes.

- Kiera Cass, The Crown

I am Made of Glass

Glass Sword - the reason why my eyes felt abused again. Who wouldn't feel tired after reading for 7 hours? I know. My fault! Anyway, this is not a review. Just my reaction, so SPOILERS AHEAD!

If I am a sword, I am made of glass, 

and I feel myself beginning to shatter.

Last time, I wrote that I wanted to have tension between Cal and Kilorn. Well, there was tension but not as much and not for the reason that I expected it to be. If Red Queen made me feel giddy, Glass of Sword did not. Cal and Mare slept in the same bedchamber and there were tender moments but it wasn't enough to make me feel like the previous book. It made me feel melancholic if anything. This book had so much feels. Not to mention what happened to Shade. Shade that they have just found. Shade that was happy being with Diana. Shade that seemed invulnerable because of his jumping. And Shade who became a favorite character of mine even though my YA-fan-heart-and-mind knows that he is not going to last the series. Everytime they go into a mission it was like I'm always offering a silent prayer to the YA gods to keep him alive. Shade is my Aedion (Throne of Glass) in Red Queen. I was actually tempted to look him up on the net while I was halfway through Glass Sword to see if he will live up to the third book or not, just to prepare my poor heart. Since the gods know better, my only consolation is that Diana is pregnant. Isn't she? "One hand splays across her stomach, strangely gentle." 

No matter how much I want to feel him, I cannot. 

I must keep my eyes ahead, and away from the fire of a fallen prince. 

I must freeze my heart to the one person who insists on setting it ablaze.

While browsing the comments in Goodreads, there were some who said that they are on team Maven. So I was like - omg, here we go again. I read one and she just said that she is on team Maven, but not for Mare. She just wanted for Maven to unleash the beast in him or something like that. Okay, that's enough. I can live with that, so I did not read the others. But please, please, I am praying again to the YA gods to guide Ms. Victoria Aveyard not to pull an Adam-Juliette-Aaron stunt (Shatter Me). Whenever it crosses my mind, I feel like I'm going to get mad as in crazy-mad. I kept on trying to convince myself that it's not going to happen because Mare describes Maven as a monster and despised him a lot. But Cal told Mare that she cares more than she thinks for him or something like that. And then I thought of Juliette. Everyone thought Aaron was a monster, until Juliette was able to get closer to him. What if Victoria decided to flip and twist things and make Mare choose Maven? While deeply pondering about it, a set of end scenarios came flooding my mind. Like Mare and Maven dying together and Cal becoming king. Or Cal becoming king, Maven getting exiled and Mare choosing to live with him. But I couldn't picture a scenario wherein Cal is king and Mare is queen. Am I just being too pessimistic despite the series' title being Red Queen? As in Mare becoming Cal's Red Queen? Oh please, oh please. I wanted to trust the author that this is not going to be a Shatter Me ending.

 Trust no one. - Shade Barrow